Grand Illusions

As a boy I was transfixed with All Is Vanity, an 1892 sketch by Charles Allan Gilbert. At first glance there is a woman beautifying herself in front of the vanity mirror. But by stepping back (or squinting) the larger picture tells a very different story. To a certain degree it reminds me of legalism. When viewed up close it gives the impression of being disciplined, working towards a goal, and following the right path. From a distance, or perhaps an eternal perspective, however, it may shrivel our spirit to the point of death.

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What other perspectives are deadly illusions? There are some we hold onto with a vengeance, knowing we see reality. What about religion? How illusory is our understanding of God and how such beliefs are to be lived out? Is the belief in God’s existence one grand illusion? Is the belief in Not-God one such illusion?

Some theorists believe we, as a human race, “will evolve” out of these illusory tendencies. However, problematic questions arise from such claims. If evolution explains all, then why has it led us to a place where we must be enlightened so as to rid ourselves of religion? Why would natural selection lead us to religious formations in the first place?[1] It is quite an anomaly of natural selection that one of its outcomes would be to question its own efficiency in explaining the presence of mysticism and religion.

I am not the first to ponder this. Atheistic evolutionists have been addressing it for some time. Richard Dawkins, in The God Delusion, says, “Religion is so wasteful, so extravagant; and Darwinian selection habitually targets and eliminates waste.”[2] He acknowledges the tension between the assertion that natural selection should have gotten rid of religion, and the fact that it did not.

Richard Dawkins in The God Delusion and Eckhart Tolle in A New Earth expound on the virtues and elegance of the evolutionary process, that evil and a dualistic view of right and wrong are but temporary stages in a very elegant process. All this is said hoping to renew our trust in natural selection’s eventual overthrow of evil. But if evolution is as elegant as these theorists claim and if we are the products of such an efficient self-governing process, how is it that so few have been informed and the rest lack such knowledge? What inefficiencies in the evolutionary process have kept most of us out of the loop?

I believe it is a profound illusion to insist that we are in the process of evolving out of what religious peoples call evil, and will eventually arrive, even if it takes millennia, at a higher state, free from such inadequacies. First of all, nowhere in the evolutionary code is it written that we should ever know what we are going to evolve into. Knowing the outcome of the evolutionary process is contrary to natural selection itself! Secondly, how is it that these theorists have come to know what the best thing we could evolve into looks like? Where did they get the idea of good or better?

We do not know that we are going to evolve into something greater than our current state, one without evil. For all we know we will evolve into something far worse than we currently are.

Is the belief that we are going to evolve and rise above our current state an improvement over religious illusions? Or is it just another illusion? I have to admit that religions have wrought havoc over the millennia and one could argue that atheism is an improvement. Richard Dawkins seems to think so, pointing a finger at all the wars that have been waged in the “name of religion.” At the same time he also claims that no wars have been waged in the “name of atheism.”[3] I have heard claims to the contrary. In my lifetime alone wars have been waged by atheistic regimes with great devastation. Clearly, religion is not the only illusion with which we struggle.

Thomas Merton wrote, “We have become marvelous at self-delusion; all the more so, because we have gone to such trouble to convince ourselves of our own absolute infallibility.”[4] It seems that we need illusions to cope. We use them to rationalize away our ignorance. Jesus said, “He who says he has no sin lies.”[5] His words could be paraphrased, “He who says he has no self–deception is most self–deceived.” The worst of the worst of illusions is that we possess none!

We are enveloped by illusions of completeness, of consistency, of inerrancy, of absolutes, of clearly defined right and wrong. But if we live surrounded by so many illusions, how do we discern their presence in our lives? Where do we start? Perhaps we start at the very beginning.

– Sam Augsburger

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[1] Though theorists, such as Richard Dawkins, attempt to address this question, their answers leave me empty and longing for more.

[2] Richard Dawkins, The God Delusion (New York: Houghton Mifflin Company, 2006), 163.

[3] Ibid., 278.

[4] Thomas Merton, The Seven Storey Mountain (Orlando: Harcourt, 1948), 224-25.

[5] 1 John 1:8-10.

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A Symphony of Diversity

The universe is a symphony of wonder and beauty, simplicity and complexity, elegance and extravagance. Yet those of us living here in the miniscule sector we call home wrestle with fear and survival, discontinuity and incompleteness, life and death. We feebly reach for something beyond this small space but remain firmly entrenched.

We humans live for what we do not see and die for what we do. We fight for what we want to believe rather than live into the strange, dimensional, and fractal nature of the cosmos and the symphonic entities we were intended to be. We live in a state of discord.

Imagine, if you will, attending an orchestral performance of Johann Sebastian Bach’s Brandenburg Concerto No. 2 in F Major. This particular orchestra is known to have members who are quite opinionated on the topic of Bach. Some are quite adamant as to which scores of the concerto best represent Bach’s intentions. In their pursuit of the purest form of representation of the Master, they limit themselves to these scores.

The conductor raises his baton and the audience is hushed. Then all hell breaks loose. Scores from the beginning to the end of the concerto are played simultaneously! The din is overwhelming. Yet, the musicians do not flinch. They each know they are playing the right score. The conductor feverishly taps his music stand. The members, however, are not even looking at the conductor. Some look at other performers angrily for being on the wrong page! The chaos continues.

This scenario sounds preposterous, but in reality plays itself out every day on earth. It is what we have done for millennia. Music that would otherwise overwhelm us with beauty, if played symphonically, is now a most displeasing sound. We depreciate variation rather than pursue truth in harmonious relationship. We have failed by letting our complexities divide us rather than use them to build a larger and more complete symphony that pursues truth without hesitation.

This is not simply a religious problem. We are fragmented philosophically, racially, politically, scientifically, geographically, economically, and culturally. Still there is beauty in the fragments. It is found in giftedness, in perception, in color, and in tradition, among other diversities. Can the pieces play in harmony once again? I believe they can. I believe our call is to resonate in diversity. Diversity is the symphony.

– Sam Augsburger

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Uncertainty and Questions

For most of my life I have carried around a nagging intellectual uncertainty that resists the absoluteness of the religious doctrines I inherited. How can so many others in the world be so wrong while I carry around the baggage of theological correctness? Something simply did not add up. Once I began to acknowledge this exhaustion and uncertainty, doubts and questions that had been buried deep inside from years of repression surfaced with eruptive force . . .

“Who put God into power?”

“Why is there so much pain and suffering?”

“Can God hear me?”

“Does he, she, or it even care?”

“What kind of God plays sadistic tricks on humans, sending to hell those who didn’t get the whole salvation thing quite right?”

Better yet, “What kind of loving God ordains some humans to fill hell?”

“If scripture is so inerrant, why do we jump through such elaborate hoops to explain away all the inconsistencies?”

“Why was I tormented as a kid, believing one moment that I was going to heaven, only to find myself in the next moment convinced that I was headed to hell?”

“Oh, and what about all those unanswered prayers? Who is to blame? Did I not have enough faith, or is God simply indifferent?”

“If we truly believe God is infinite, how is it that we have come to pretend to know so much about God?”

While the experience of regurgitating these questions was frightening at times, it gradually grew into one of freedom: freedom to ask fearful, ugly, and difficult questions. Now, instead of dreading the retribution of an angry God for such disrespectful interrogations on my part, I live with an enduring image of a Teacher who smiles at those who dare to ask forbidden questions. I eventually found answers to some of the questions. Others simply melted away in insignificance. Some remain suspended in time.

This is a journey where all questions are valid questions, and where the process of seeking answers is the destination. Let’s wander into Slices of God.

– Sam Augsburger

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What Brought All This About?

Over fifteen years ago I came face to face with doubts and questions about God that I had repressed since childhood (details to follow). Since then I have been on a journey of wading through discontinuities within and between sacred writings and scientific data. I resigned the doctrines I held so staunchly, including the God concept itself, resolving to start from scratch. I chose to permit scientific, mathematical, philosophical, and theological sources to speak into each other. Though the process was difficult at times, I am eternally grateful for the resulting freedom that has filled my soul.

The quest is not over. In fact, I now believe the journey is the destination. The book, Slices of God: Strange, Dimensional, and Fractal Perspectives on God and the Cosmos, is a summary of the process to date.  It’s an invitation to move out of our tightly sealed boxes and experience the freedom that honest searching can bring. Some of the entries on this site will be excerpts from the book.

If you wish to read the whole story, Slices of God is available in paperback and Kindle format from Amazon.com.

– Sam Augsburger

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